Stories — D&C

Today I am eight weeks and one day pregnant with my rainbow baby, Ellis.  I’m sitting here, slightly queasy, eating strawberries and sipping cold ginger tea as I type.  This is the second time I’ve been eight weeks and one day pregnant, but today with Ellis is so much different than than today with JB. Today I’m thinking about these brothers, my angel and my rainbow. “Today” with JB, I was sad.  Instead of eating strawberries, I was eating nothing in preparation for surgery.  “Today” with JB, I was getting a second ultrasound to confirm his passing.  Instead of planning...

I posted this photo today on Instagram.  The caption reads: “The slight smile on my lips can’t hide the grief in my eyes. Rolling into my D&C a year ago today (5/31/2017). I get pretty loopy coming out of anesthesia, and my conscious came to crying out, “Did you see my baby?! Did you see my baby?!?!?” “ Finding out you miscarried, no matter how early, is traumatic.  Going through the process of actually passing the baby is an equally traumatic, drawn out process.  Some women pass the baby on their own.  Others need help in the case of a...